woohooo..it was great!haha..at least i didnt tremble like last time,at j8.. heard that my voice was quite soft during e performance(due to the mic's problem)..but overall..it was excellent..haha..did surprise some friends as today's shuxian doesnt look like the shuxian u used to see..haha..zixuan was shocked for that 1 second..he told me so..haha..well..got to thank Ms Ang for inviting me to sing with her..although we did think of singing together in school since long time ago,but it didnt come true..until today..it finally came true~really thanks a lot though you may not be seeing this..oh yeah..was looking for ppl to point at when i am singing,so pointed/smiled at some friends like Alicia,Elaine,Zixuan and Jojo when i was singing "wo bu shi yi ge ren zai zhe shi jie ting kao,yin wei wo yong you ni,zai wo xin li"...yeah..without all of u, i will be alone here~so i would like to thank u all for being there with me always..especially my supportive classmates and jiemeiz(jojo,xuanxuan and fy,u all are included....haha)!!^-^thanks for encouraging me and blablabla..hehe...btw..kaamun has a fun experience of being MC too..it was supposed to be Val..but too bad that val is sicked and didnt manage to attend the rehearsals..so Kaamun became the MC instead...everything went well anyway..had a lot of fun at the back stage..lolx..got to know some new friends and finally took a photo with Jannah(my pri sch classmate)..wanted to record the performance down for those friends in China to see de..in e end..ah sheng took it at e AV room upstairs..dotz..cant even see my face and hear anything...#$&*(*&^...but nvm..hope he can get the one which can be seen and heard clearly for me ASAP...thanks ya yuesheng... after e celebration, went to canteen and took many photos with jq,val,eunice,km and jojo..haha..i love those photos(shown below this post)haha..take a look if u want to..^-^ wait for jojo in canteen with val and eunice for 2 hours plus plus plus..val and eunice felt lethargic and they went home...luckily minchang and kenneth came out from NCC room and chat with me(jojo they all are discussing about their future post)...JOJO~I HAVE WAITED FOR 3 HOURS AND 41 MINUTES TODAY..so..next time i must let u wait for 6 hours adn 41min..hahhaa...just joking..hmm..went to j8 to have lunch at kfc...as we were walking to j8,we saw a hp on e floor..e 4 of us decided to leave it at the police station near-by,and jojo tried to call e number of "lovely home" to inform the family members of the owner..yeah..the name was really "lovely home"..lol..could she be one of our schoolmates?i doubt so..at least we did something gd as the owner called jojo and thank him..which means the owner has got back e phone le lo..hee... wait for zixuan as we were eating..phew...kenneth and minchang had already finished eating when xuanxuan reached..haha..so fast..zixuan suggested to go and watch "xiaohaibuben2" initially...however, we decided to go n buy jojo's sis's present and watch another day eventually...actually i wanna watch "moonlight in Tokyo" and "Memoirs of Geisha" instead..but one of them is NC 16,xuanxuan cant watch..n the rest dun wanna watch..haiz...dun think its still showing in cinema le..sobx...left with M.O.G...heard that its okok only..but i am still very interested in e story line..gosh...jojo...do u wan to watch?pei wo qu kan ma..kaamun is not back yet..haiz....

anyway,went to ps and met fengyuan together with jojo,kenneth,minchang and xuanxuan..and they~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~better dont talk abt it..haha..its M18 topic..lolx..or R21?lolx... reached home only ard 8..minchang sent me home as he wanted to get dvds from me..haha..wanted to bath immediately after he left..but i found my room really messy..so decided to tidy it up first..diaooo...seriously LETHARGIC....lolx...washed clothes and blablabla..bath and online..e make up i put was so hard to wash away coz they are water-proof..gosh..why did i buy such ex products in e 1st place......phew...............-_-..hao lei ohhhhhhhhhhh..... thats all about today ba i supposed..haha... lets talk about the previous days...had 2 rehearsals in hall and skipped one hmt lesson on monday with mr teo's permission...and later on..i was informed that we will be going to kaamun,ruibei and elaine's class instead..so we are able to go to amkss together..yes!hee..i like e teacher..hee..yuesheng is also back from new zealand..bought lotz of chocolates to share with e class though i didnt take it..only took e bull-shape sweet..haha...just that i found it different~he gotta work very hard as he has missed lot of lessons...but heard that he is going to finish all hw given already?unbeliveable man~~~~~~haha..

hmmhmm..have to offline now..i am dozing off~~~~~~~~so perhaps i will be back to edit this post again if i am not that lazy..see ya friends...hee..tataz....

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Friday, January 27, 2006

do u know what are they doing

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haha..JOJO kee~

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blur eunice..cute right...

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xuanxuan's new hairstyle

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Benjamin from dance&dramma..

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jojo and xianxian~nice nice~~

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the 3 monkeys~~~

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a girl from dance and dramma~from bws

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jannah and me..(she's my pri sch friend)

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(lingling and me)nice make up hur~lolx

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kaamun and shuxian oh!!!

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say cheeseeee~~~

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lastly,junquan and me~~~

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lingling(e teacher who asked me to sing with her

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Sunday, January 22, 2006

blushing?why?no reason?!!

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a post of CHINESE CHARACTERS..read it only if you are interested..

最近又想起了很多很多的事情,偶尔还会有一些莫名的感触~那天看到VAL的NICK上说童话故事通常都会有好的结局..
可是我觉得~童话故事固然美丽~但有几段恋情能够像童话故事的结局般完美？又有哪个王子会为了寻找自己的灰姑娘而找遍全世界?其实在现实生活中,公主不会永远地等待王子,因为当她等的当而,岁月已经在她的脸上画上了痕迹,当王子找到公主时,王子可能已经不再爱她了。那就算王子找到了公主，又能改变什么呢？
事实上，看过童话故事的人都会有一段×希望自己的“王子/公主”能够出现×的时候，但是你应该好好想想，这个所谓的“你的王子/公主”一定会像你爱他/她一样地爱你吗？当你遇见了一个你爱她/他，可他/她却不爱你的“王子/公主”，到最后，受伤的还不是你自己吗？
当我们刚从一段恋情里走出来的时候，也许我们会难过，也许我们会发狂，也许，我们会失去生命的平衡感，开始麻木，开始害怕爱情。
当我们想要遗忘的时候，却总又那么地不干脆。就是因为曾经深爱过，所以才那么刻骨铭心、无法释怀。可那些没有用心去爱，却又以为自己付出了很多的人，往往都不需要刻意地去遗忘，因为他们付出的，只是时间，虚假，或许，还参杂着一丁点的爱。刚开始，他们认为自己很难忘记，以为自己被伤透了心，可随着时间的飞逝，跟着时间一起跑的他们，都会比对方容易放开过去。到最后，伤得最深的，其实是在恋爱时，表面上付出了很少，心灵上却付出了很多的那一方。
他们常说不顾一切的爱才算是爱，可“爱”的定义是什么，其实是要看个人的观点以及曾经受过的教育。对于你来说，或许有个男生/女生对你好，关心你，照顾你，那就是爱。可当你身边的人都对你好，关心你，照顾你，难道，他们都爱上你了？
许多人耗尽了一生的力气去寻找自己的“王子/公主”，可当他们走到了生命的尽头，他们才会发现，原来，他们的王子/公主一直都在爱着他们，像他们一样寻找着。只是人的那种不满于现状的心态，使他们错过了自己的王子/公主。当他们和自己的王子/公主在一起的时候，他们却丝毫没有察觉到那个人的重要性。直到失去了，没有时间了，他们才知道：原来王子/公主曾经在他们的生命中出现过。只是，一切都太迟了～

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did u see it on channel u's website?taken during the 3rd audition

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latest kanga logo..lolx..looks lame

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ling ling and i at kbox..haha

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jojo~

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xianxian again

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eunice's astro-boy

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eunice acting cute~

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abit blur~

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haha..xuanxuan~

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xuanxuan bcm sun wu kong??

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sec one cca orientation

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after sec one orientation..gosh..do eunice and i look alike in this pic?

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xianxian1

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Saturday, January 21, 2006

*my heart is bleeding~*

yoz...haha..have not been update my bloggy for e whole week already!!!gosh..its been SOOOO LONGGGG to me~haha..but in e mean while,it shows that i have some improvements on controlling myself from not coming online for chatting,blogging and friendster-ing..\(^o^)/ CHEERS!!!
haha..actually i did online la..but didnt chat(meaning=didnt reply anyone's msg or talk to anyone unless necessary)..muahaha..
hmmhmm..well..lets start talking about today 1st before i can recall what i did throughout the week..
well..went back to school early in e morning for prefect leadership workshop,planned by Federick(dunno whether i spelled it correctly) and Peiling..overall..it was fun..and LETHARGIC~haha..mrs soh asked us to use it whenever we want to say that we are tired..lol..mr goh isnt around today,so only mrs goh came..anyway,i heard that prefect camp is from march holiday's WED ALL THE WAY TO SUNDAY..does it mean that i dont have time to revise my work already?-_-~~NO WAY~~~~~
kkz..lets talk about the matter irritates me or should say troubled me during every prefect meeting..most of u reading this blog know there's another shuxian in school now right?and its like..i always turn around whenever ppl called *shuxian*..and in e end,they werent calling me!!!~~ haiz...its so embarrass..those ppl who dunno i am shuxian too will most probably think that *is this girl crazy or got attracted by my voice?why is she always turn around and look at me*~lolx..just trying to be funny..ignore this part...
after the workshop,came home and have my lunch with qiqi..rest until 2 plus and go out with qiqi to meet kaamun..we were late for about half an hour due to some reasons..sorry gal...went to bugis to buy some clothes and blablabla..spent $100 plus~of coz not all of them are mine~so yup..decided to have kfc at tpy after shopping(ard 8 plus)..kaamun went off early to meet val(ard 5 plus)..took 57 back to tpy..
chat with qiqi about our family's problem..including my parents and my mum's sisters~only one of them among the 4 owns a good relationship with her husband and her life is full of happinese..the rest,including my mum,are suffering~haiz..and the worse marriage is my mum and my dad's..i think qiqi has got the right point~*the three of us(nengneng,qiqi and me)are all afraid of "LOVE" as we see these happening to our parents,thats also why i was so afraid to "give" at that time & it eventually lead to the failure of our relationship*..its passed..so let it stay as a memory instead...i've no time to think about it neither....
**i can stand everything but not this-->my dad beating my mum..well,i didnt see it..or else..i will be the one who bring my mum out of that home instead of my mum bringing me out of it~i knew there were several times that my dad quarrelled with my mum until so serious that he beat my mum up..i am very pissed off when i got to know about it..those men who beat women are idiot...!!!!!
hmmp!!!!~~~~
and one more thing about today...$%^&*(*&^%$##$%^&&^%$%^&*&^$&&^%^&^Y$%^%^%Y^%^%^^&^&^.........dun wan to mention it here..

lets change a topic...if not i will hv high blood pressure SOON~~~

hmm...lets talk about what happened during the past few days now...
had 3 tests this week..hmm..2 of them were quite ok...but i doubt if i can pass the EM test..haha..i found AM easier now..anyway,why i think i will fail e EM test is bcs its about drawing graph again..i am not tat good in stuff related to graphs and circles..haha..hmm..gonna have 2 tests or more for the coming week...*pray*~~~~~gotta study seriously already..O LEVEL IS COMING..............haha..oh yeah,may be singing a song with ms ang during chinese new year..so gonna go out to choose the song we wanna sing tmr..nope.."later" i mean....yup..thats about all for this week?haha..too short?sorry abt tat..i got STM if u remember...hehe...

oh yeah..here are some horoscope thingy related to me which i happened to see it at QQ.com..they are quite true..so unbelieveable....
1.this is about me.."年轻时，你常处于被动的一方，总等着别人追求，把自己当成女王，心机颇重，也许刚开始时会被认为是有魅力的表现，但久了之后会让对方觉得没诚意，导致关系破裂，最后落得孤单的下场。你应该多采取主动，不要等着别人来拯救你，因为幸福是操之在己的，当你决定开始怎么做的时候，光明之路也同时被你打开了。"
2.this is about Gemini guys..(this is really very true about him)
"双子座的男生个性很不定，往往像个长不大的孩子，他自己也很清楚自己很不牢靠，而且他很担心自己对对方的兴趣维持不久，他不认为这样的自己可以给别人幸福，因此有时他会想要逃避一段稳定的关系。"
hmm..if u all wanna read more..click on this http://astro.lady.qq.com/a/20060119/000007.htm all of them are in chinese~
ok then..gonna offline soon...btw..i have a lot of photos to upload but my "hello" has some problems..only can send 1 photo and it stops working after that...and i am quite lazy to use photobucket to copy+paste..haha..will try to show it as soon as possible ok?see ya friends...take care and be optimistic!!!!!!!nitenitez.....

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Saturday, January 14, 2006

*time is flying while i am still walking slowly-_-*

yoz friends,just changed the wallpaper of this bloggy again..hope it looks nice to u all..(Joel also changed his..take a look when u are free^-^)

hmmhmm..kkz..lets talk about a few things happened within these few days...

1.thursday(higher chinese lesson at ang mo kio)
my lesson starts at 4.30 while ruibei,elaine and kaamun's start at 3.30..OOOIIIINNNNTTT~FAINTS...do u know what time did they leave the school...4.30..which means they are 1 hour late..and guess what..they got to release EARLY~~~oh man..when our lesson is just about to start,their lesson ended..lolx...dunno should i be sad or happy for those who are in the same class as me and myself~kekez...anyway,THANKS TO ELAINE,RUIBEI AND CELINE for going home together with me(they did homework in the canteen and wait for us)..^-^
*sigh*..i only managed to reach home ard 8..so pathetic..after reaching home..lost mood for whatever things i wanted to do already..but wooohooo~managed to control myself and ask myself to stay away from e laptop..guess how did i manage to do that!!!lolx..u will feel like kicking me after i tell u...SLEEPING is the way..haha~when u are sleeping..u wont think about it..lol..hey~dont say that i didnt study/do homework woR..I finished it in school already~=)gotta work very very hard this year..good luck to myself and everyone else taking o level~JIA YOU!!!



2.Friday
well..had a good time ytd..haha..our 1st dinner after school reopen.
For cca orientation,it was ok~help jianxiang,mandy,weijie and shuyun they all clicking mouse to run e powerpoint slides only..haha..so relaxing..i guess computer club won't get so many new members as there are many gd CCAs in e school..and mrs ling+ms wong also dont really bother to fight for it..we've never see them asking ppl to write their names down if they want to join before..so far..for 3 years' orientation,its always the same..so when kaamun they all asked how many ppl wana join computer club..i have totally no idea..but i can see that some boys(40% looks like primary school kids..) are attracted by the robotics course..haha..and there's a kaijun-look boy..haha..but he's the smaller size one..and he's rather obedient~the orientation ended ard 5.40pm..but after waiting for kaamun,joel and blabla..we only managed to leave the school ard 7.10..which is very late~went to j8 for dinner together with Joel,Km,Zx,Minchang,Kenneth,Jason,Jingyi,Fengyuan and Nicholas..so sad that Eunice and Val cant join us as val has a meeting(UAN thingy) at PS and eunice gotta go home to have dinner..haiz..friday is the only day for all of us to have dinner and chat together..*lian luo gan qing* ma..haha..we spent almost half an hour to look for seats..we went to pastamania,yoshinoya,kfc,mac,mos burger,long john and back to yoshinoya again as we see some familar faces who were sitting in yoshinoya came out..so km *ran* in to make sure there're seats for us...phew..finally...was SO HUNGRY~haha..everyone ate so fast and they finished it within 15minutes while i am still eating~~~dotz...zi bei~sobx...
after having dinner(ard 8.15pm)..we went to bits and pieces to check zixuan,nicholas and jojo's ring sizes...xuanxuan=13(same as me),jojo=21,nicholas=23(gosh,almost twice of xuanxuan's and mine)..haha..took bus home together with kenneth,minchang and JOJO kee~and wat did jojo teach me~*reminisce*(he hasnt tell me the correct spelling yet)..i reminisce the 1st dinner we had..lolx..after reaching tpy centre..jojo acc me to wait for 232,talk about some problems we are facing..and blablabla~reached home ard 9.25pm..watched tv..bathe..and online~had a strong feeling which asked me to change the blog's skin..so changed it lor~spent 4 hours doing it..(coz i was dreaming at the same time)lolx..
3.Saturday
was supposed to sleep early and go for jogging with yanyu early in e morning..i woke up on time but my eyes couldnt open..so bang onto the wall..the door and wherever i can..*so painful*..was late for about 15 minutes..so sorry to yanyu,kenneth and joel...sorry for letting u 3 wait for me...jog from 8.45am to 9.30 like that..(actually just managed to run 2 rounds+walk 2 rounds)..haha..totally dont have e mood after yanyu left for her piano lesson..lolx...jojo left 1st..then kenneth..and left with theodore and me..went to have breakfast at bus interchange..had *rou chuo mian* yummy~that was nice~haha..will go there again for sure..
came home to rest for a little while and help jojo to make his blog's wallpaper..hope u like it(i know u will...dont say u dont~hahahaha)
went out again to buy hp..sony ericsson w550i..actually i wanted to buy 800i..but its too ex..dont plan to spend so much money on it coz i need to buy a hp for mummy this year..her birthday present..need to save money from now on..haha..saw zheying,erer and jiemin on bus..then chat with them and blabalbla...met Ross to buy the phone..then went to find zheying they all to chat with them..after that..went to j8 to buy......buy........*secret*..
and here i am..haha..
my bro got scratched by the cat of my neighbour..tats extremely weird coz the cat is very timid,and we dont understand why he got scratched by it...nainai started to scold him like mad and blabla....then brought him to tan tock seng and KK..joel was just outside my house but i dont even know..haha...and i also dunno nainai and qiqi brough my bro out to see doctor too...*blur* sia...
hee...ok then..gotta end it here...got to go and look for games for e phone now..see ya friends..take care and stay cheerful~be optimistic!!!!yeah..jia you jia you~~~nitenitezzz~~~~~

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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

*lessons,homework and tests~~*

phew..i am so surprised that i am still so alert at this moment..its already 4.20am..lol..gosh..i was about to fall aslp during mr teh's lesson but why am i not sleepy at all now~~~~~~~~~~~~
wooohooo~today's such a LONG day..i meant ytd(monday)..only managed to reach home ard 8pm-_-...NONONO~dont get the wrong idea..i didnt go out and play around ar~~~i went for higher chinese lesson~my goodness..it starts at 4.30 and ends at 6.30 on every monday and thursday...how i wish every sunday/tuesday can be public holiday..so that i can get to rest/dont have to go for the higher chinese lessons...but the sad thing is..this is a WISH..as someone said before..a WISH will NEVER come true~even if it does come true,there will also wont be any nice ending..for example:blablablablabla~~~
well..took EM test today..hmm..i guess i can pass it no matter what?(i cant imagine if i fail the 1st test of the term..god bless me^-^)was supposed to take physics test too..but LUCKILY..it is postpone to wednesday..haha..i'm not well prepared for it yet..so got to work really hard today(tuesday)...will be having AM test and Physics test tomorrow...hopefully i can do well ba..hope so hope so...=p
wah..its kind of stress up since the 1st week of the school..today is just the beginning of the 2nd week and i am already stressed up~dont really understand what mr teh is teaching..got to figure out myself latest by this weekend lo..really have to work very hard le la...heyhey,if you see me chatting instead of studying..kick me/nag at me and whatever la~just remind me to STUDY hard~~~lolx...
hmhmmm...actually felt quite bad when i saw zixuan crying in mr teh's homeroom..*peep* through e glass-made window and saw mr teh teaching him how to read vernier calipers...so found him after school and asked if he needs help..then we had lunch together and started to clear his doubts on physics after that...haha..oh yeah..i realised that why zixuan doesnt understand was bcs of a question which people most probably wont think about..so,xuanxuan,dont need to think that much de k?=)hmhmm..i was rather blur as i was seriously tired..i just remember that i taught him e wrong thing...eh..not like wrong concept la..just the reading part...i read wrongly as i was like..dozing off(my mind went blank..haha)didnt manage to sleep well last night as i spent the night studying for tests~haha..so tmr is gonna be a tough day again~have to study study and study while kaamun they all decided to go for a picnic at somewhere..lolx..
ok then..gtg to sleep now..got to wake up early and go to j8 and get back my AM guide book from junquan..he has forgotten about it and brought it home..haha..so..yupp..nitez friends...take care and rest well..good luck for the coming tests,exams and everything...good luck to all of us^-^

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Friday, January 06, 2006

*such a tiring week~*

hihi^-^~~~
lets talk about the 1st week of the sch...
gosh..its SUPER tiring EVERYDAY...lessons have started since the 1st day of school(only CME,the rest started on the 2nd day)..
and guess what?its gonna be a torturing year for me i guess...
lets play a guessing game 1st..QN:who teaches me CME....?
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MS TAN SIOK LEE!!!!!????!!!!!yes..u didnt see anything wrong..she's teaching us CME and pure chem..gosh..she will most probably take over the CME lessons for her chemistry..which means i got to see her for 4 periods on monday..and if the 2 periods of CME are changed to chemistry..can u imagine how many brain cells of ours will be killed?haha..
well..there will be a teacher from the OLD bwss teaching us Geog and Mdm Yong will be teaching us Social studies...haiz..i will most probably doze off during the SS lessons?if Mr Anba is still here..there will be a different story..haha..i love his lessons...at least i wont feel like sleeping..
oh yeah..this is really great!Mrs Soh is teaching us English..i do believe that with her help,we will do well in english for sure(except for my oral la,its so hard for me to speak english-_-)..haha..
hmmhmm...so far..will be having 3 tests in the coming week..AM,EM and Physics..was supposed to have these 2 Maths tests on thurs and friday and fortunately,mrs foo changed her mind after we all "begging" her pitifully..lolx...but we really dont have so much time to study seriously,so giving us more time is better(no one wishes to fail for the 1st test of the year right)....
hmm..have been thinking whether i should drop my higher chinese for the past few days..problems for now are that :
*1.the lessons are on monday and thursday,4.30pm-6.30pm..which end very late..and if we are going to have tests on the next day..how am i going to study for it?i guess i can only manage to reach home ard 8pm,which means that i almost spend 12-13 hours for lessons on these 2 days..by the time i finished bathing,having my dinner and blablabla..its already 9pm..how am i going to study when i am so tired..totally no mood le ba...
*2.there is another choice for me which is going to beatty instead of AMKSS for the HMT lessons,lessons at beatty are on every monday and wednesday,3-5pm...which is so much earlier than AMKSS...HOWEVER!! if i have to leave the school before 3pm..it seems that i cant be able to go for supplementary lessons..monday is maths remedial and wed is one of the science subject most probably..how can i affort to miss these lessons..my result is already bad enough since last year..haiz...supplementary lessons will most probably end at 4,so its just nice to go AMKSS,but for the problem 1 i mentioned just now..it made me confused and lost..really dunno how to do...haiz...
*3.i have already decided to go poly instead of JC,and mr teo had found out for me that the higher chinese mark cant be used for entering poly..so it will turn out like..i study it for nothing..seriously nothing..if u say that can help me to improve my chinese..i will have to say that u are wrong about it..coz its not helping me to improve my chinese but its making me do even worse for my chinese..my chinese has been *tui bu* instead of *jin bu* for last year..haiz...i do wish to take the "o" level higher chinese exam but i dont wish to go for the lessons...=(but i have no choice,got to go for lessons if i want to take the exam..although the marks cant help me much but i still want to take the exam...haiz..so troublesome~~~~~
************all these problems can be solved simply IF MR TEO IS WILLING TO CONDUCT HIGHER CHINESE LESSONS FOR US IN SCHOOL..we wont have to miss our S lessons..we wont have to go home late..and we wont be SO TIRED~~~~~~~argh..but he just dont agree with it...is like a simple problem that can be solved by him but he just not willing to solve it for us...chi da bian~~~~~~~~~~~~~haiz...
so now i am still deciding..got to make a decision over the weekend as HMT lessons start from monday...(can everyone gives me some advices)
for Ms ang and Mrs Ling..they said that i have studied for one year already,its like wasted if i drop it now..yes i agree..but MR TEO JUST DOES NOT WANT TO HELP US IN THIS..haiz..sad~~ *thinking~~~*
*thinking~~~~*...
*and i am still thinking of it~~~~~*
hard to make e decision~help~help~help~~~~~~~~~~~

anyway..lets talk abt ytd's 1st comp club meeting and today..
hmm..the meeting was bored..haha..we got to prepare for sec one orientation~need to do programming of robotics thingy and show it in front of the sec one kids..they do have the kids look..but heard yanyu said that they are terribly naughty~haha..sad to say that i will most probably talk to them or self-introducing if mrs ling asks me to..*pray~~hope that i wont have to speak english in front of so many ppl,diu ren xian yan de~~~~haha...
"chairman,chairman"~ is how nicholas from sec 3 calls me..-_-..oh man..he's asking me when to have meetings to do the robotics thingy whenever he sees me in school..gosh..i have never seen anyone who always ask for meetings...-_-...he's the 1st and only one...haha..is it bcs he intends to be the next chairman or something??but i dont think he will be selected...he hardly works with people in teams..dont u think so zixuan?
hmm..today is actually even tiring although we have 3 free periods..and i seemed to be the only one who dont get what my friends/classmates are teaching(we are having micro-teaching session now) during physics..
they explain and mr teh explains again..i just dont understand it..haiz..feel like singing *shen a..jiu jiu wo ba* already..ahaha...nvm..will read through e tb and try my best to find out no matter what..hope i can *jian chi dao di* ba..hopefully wont lose my mood for studying and keep onlining again~~~~~~hee...
had prefect meeting today..PLAY GAME with bwss prefects and blablabla...that hypocrite is acting still~act act act~she should go to mediacorp instead of school~at least its somewhere she can act at and without anyone feeling that she's so *fake*...lalala~~~anyway..the meeting lasts for 2 hours++..mr goh and mrs goh(not his wife k) talk a lot about rules and blablabla...
btw..jojo and fengyuan came back today..but jojo left after a short while..as we were so hungry after the meeting, and the stalls in canteen are already closed...we decided to call for pizza delivery..haha..yuesheng,zixuan,km,kenneth,val,eunice,desmond and me had it in canteen...not forgetting to leave one piece for mdm(fengyuan)..ahaha..and guess what..he used tape to repair his *spoiled* shoes..lolx...and heard that he got angry and scolded ppl during NP again..(zixuan walked passed and heard it if i am not wrong)..lolx..we played truth or dare after eating..had some fun ba...coz we have nothing much to ask..so decided to change to dare..lolx...
~~dozing off~~(dozed off on the bus twice le,ytd and today..haiz..its just the 1st week and we are already so tired...cant imagine what's goin to happen next~~~~~~~)
ok then..i got to go~will be going out for jogging with yanyu and minchang in e morning and with zixuan+yanyu for doing homework in e afternoon...+++watching kingkong together with minchang,zixuan and kaamun~lolx..have not been watching movie ever since i came back i supposed?is it?i haven even watch chicken little..arghhhhhhh....i wanan watch it...~~~~~~~~~and the chronicles of narnia....qing tian da sheng..and the movie which is coming soon..goshhhhhhhhhhhhhh...but i only allow myself to go out on sat which means i only left with saturdays to watch movie le...sobx....still ahve to study for testS~~~~nitez friends...take care and rest well~~remember to cover ur blanket properly wor...its rather cold at night....so..see ya friends!!!!take care!!!!!!!!!!

Shuxian flew into your heart at [10:55 PM]

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Thursday, January 05, 2006

little angel..drawn by me..

Shuxian flew into your heart at [9:06 PM]

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Tuesday, January 03, 2006

am i bad~~~

yozzy..i am here again although i am not supposed to online during the weekdays..but really gotta say this out..if i dont..i will feel v uncomfortable... hmm..actually i found myself abit abnormal~..i meant..the way i feel towards ytd's campus superstar result.. i felt nothing at the moment i got to know the result..hmmm..may be e reason was..its expected in e 1st place?as we see the number of supporters as compared to the other contestants...i did feel a bit sad for her but e sad feeling isnt tat strong...she was out not bcs of she didnt do well or what, her voice is really special in her way which i dun even have~just lack of *guan zhong yuan* and friends...lost in *ren qi*..haiz..
however, i got a mix feeling of =) + =(...hope her can get in as she represents gyss..but if she gets in..nothing much affects me but i guess i will feel sad when i am thinking abt it..now..she lost e gd chance to show her talents in front of ppl..haiz..i really dunno how should i feel sia..is like..so *mao dun*...argh... haiz..its now over le..she lost bcs of not enough of supporters..sad case..but she did very well le..top20/3000.its not that easy de...haha..i am not sure whether u(friends who are reading this) could understand me for thinking about this whenever i see her on tv/website-->i was thinking..why didnt i sing well and do my best during the 3rd audition..if i did practice enough for it/if i sang well on that day/if i chose the correct song/IF I DIDNT MAKE THAT BIGGEST MISTAKE WHICH I SHOULDNT HAVE MADE..there was still a chance for me to stand on e stage?and wont disappoint those friends and my family who wish i could get in... haha..i guess i'm really too much..shall i say that i am a bit jealous about her for getting the chance to represent the school and make the school proud?haha..who dont want to get that chance ne..its just whether u have the ability to make it or not..
bt i did vote for her although i feel this way..coz she represents the school no matter what..and that's her ambition,to become a superstar..hee..so i guess she will continue to join these type of competitions ba..good luck for her...although i feel that its kindly impossible due to some reasons..(that's my opinion..)

hmm..really sry for being so selfish&jealousy(if it is selfish in ur opinion)..or is it sacarstic?if that is..sorry for that too...i apologies...hmm..i guess this will make a lot of ppl dislike me after reading this post?but thats how i feel and i dun wish to hide it..and hope u all could understand it... .....,...i wont be joining these before "O" level ends..study comes 1st... ok then..gtg..see ya friends..thanks for reading..and hope u all will understand...tatas~~~

Shuxian flew into your heart at [7:17 PM]

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